Taming the Inner Fires with Samaya Hill

Erica

 Samaya! I'm thrilled to have you here on Soulful Soundbites. For those unfamiliar with Samaya Hill, she's a highly respected Chicago firefighter and a subtle energy alchemist. I'm eager for you to unpack that and help us understand what it means. But to give a little preview, she has a captivating journey of resilience and self-discovery that paved the way toward her wellness path. This path came after being diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, filing for personal bankruptcy, and going through a divorce. Your journey has truly allowed you to move from feeling anxious, exhausted, and overwhelmed to living a healthy, thriving life. This in itself is a remarkable experience to undergo and come out on the other side of it. And from these insights, along with your degrees and certifications, you help hundreds of people find their own wellness paths.

I'm excited today to delve into that journey, especially around those subtle energy blocks that you uncovered during your own journey and how you overcame them. So, welcome.

Samaya

Thank you, Erica. How are you? 

Erica

I'm great, really great. I've been looking forward to this conversation. I have to start with the fact that you're a firefighter. It seems like such a dichotomy - this masculine energy of protecting and saving people, coupled with tapping into the delicate, feminine quality of the energy body. So, tell me how these worlds have collided.

Samaya

Yeah, well, you know, it's funny. Firefighting was a natural step for me. I was in the army for a few years and then earned my master's degree in kinesiology. I worked with athletes, so again, everything was very masculine. I ran a human performance lab, aiming to make athletes better. I lived in the masculine energy. The fire department came along, and of course, I wanted to prove myself. My ego often stood in the way of me feeling anything or showing emotions. I never let myself become sad or cry.

But it was when I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis and, a few years later, had my first child, I realized something had to change. I wasn't feeling good. Through many years of research, I found lots of information about our health and well-being. I started to realize that stress was taking a toll on my body.

I was probably in adrenal fatigue. I was always tired, had numbness in my body, all sorts of things happening. But why did I get MS? That was my biggest question. Every disease and illness comes down to your emotions, thoughts, and beliefs. These are often shaped by childhood experiences. I got MS because of stress. But it was my emotions wrapped in that stress, or the stress was caused by the emotions that I wasn't expressing or letting out of my body.

Understanding that my emotions were shaping my reality took years. But when I was able to start moving through some of these deep layers of emotion, that masculine side started to quiet down and my feminine side was like, you just got to sit silent.

There was a moment when my kids were little, and they were napping. I was home by myself, and I just sat on the couch. Nothing was on, no TV, no radio, nothing. I crossed my legs and basked in the silence. It felt like a blanket of nothing. I was just being. Maybe this was a form of meditation, I didn't meditate at the time.

As this began to evolve and grow, I realized that my masculine energy was way out of balance, and my feminine energy was way out of balance in the other direction. I had to merge them back together and make them realize they were cohabitating in the same body, not separate. Once I merged them, everything began to align.

Erica

I love that because I feel that's a metaphor for what many people are experiencing today. Many are conforming, twisting, and bending themselves into roles that tend to be a little lopsided. In some cases, masculinity can even be toxic. We need to lift up that femininity to find harmony and balance. For you to arrive at that insight, it seems it was through looking at your emotions, beliefs, and thoughts, and of course, the stress and diagnosis. Not to belittle the significance of the diagnosis, but it was an invite to look deeper. So I know by looking underneath, you started to look at your cycles. Can you talk a little bit about that?

Samaya

Absolutely. When I work with people, we look at cycles. Let's take driving as an example since most people drive. Some people cruise along and do nothing in their cars, while others are aggressive drivers, angry and impatient. How you react when someone cuts you off tells a lot about who you really are. Driving can give you a lot of insight into your real reactions to many scenarios.

So, these cycles continue to pop up. If you're an impatient driver, then you're probably impatient when you have to wait in line at the store, and you become frustrated. Then you get home, and nobody's helping you unload the groceries or cook, and you're doing it all by yourself. This could be because you're tired, you're hungry, and you just want someone to take care of you. These cycles happen over and over again in different packages until you see that they are all the same thing, just decorated differently. Then you can see that underlying all of this might be anger.

Anger and fear are the two main emotions opposite of love. They have many other emotions underneath them. For example, with anger, there's impatience, passive-aggressive behavior, sarcasm, and rage. Being able to pick apart the puzzle allows you to see where anger is showing up in your life. Then you can start to figure out where it's coming from, which is usually childhood.

Erica

That's fascinating. Parenting can also give you insights into your cycles. The way you respond to situations is telling of what's happening internally. So, how do you work with someone when they start to notice they're impatient? They've looked at all their cycles, but they don't see a strong-rooted feeling. They're just like, Samaya, I'm super impatient, I've looked at all my cycles. There's so much to do and so little time, now what?

Samaya

Absolutely. Let's see, my kids were probably five and seven, or six and eight, and we were always late for their private school. My daughter stops and smells the roses with everything. She's slow, very observant, and never in a hurry. She was just learning to tie her shoes, which was a slow process. I'm standing at the door, keys in hand, urging her, "Sophia, let's go." I wasn't yelling, but I was on the verge of being late. Then, I suddenly heard my mom's voice.

Firstly, it was a learned behavior to be impatient and always move quickly. Secondly, I got to see where it was coming from. I remember as a child always being rushed around everywhere. Sometimes it's learned, sometimes it's an incident that created this belief that I had to hurry and be impatient.

So, I had to analyze where I've seen this show up in my entire life, and it was everywhere. If you're a fast driver, you're impatient, you're always in a hurry to get somewhere. So, why are you always in a hurry? Are you dissatisfied with your life's direction? Are you trying to escape something?

You have to start analyzing what you're running to or from in such a hurry, and it's typically one or the other. You're either trying to find something more satisfying, which isn't going to happen if you're not aware, or you're running from experiences you're tired of dealing with.

People are late for work because they don't want to go. So they're angry about their work situation. They're angry with their kids because they feel it makes them look like a bad parent or disrupts their schedule. It's always good to ask, "What's the worst that can happen if you're late?" I realized, in my case, the worst was walking them into school and being told, "Don't be late again." We often make situations out to be bigger than they really are. If a scenario keeps happening over and over again, then there's something you're not looking at.

Erica

I appreciate your honesty. It's really essential to spot these patterns or cycles and through self-discovery or guidance, identify what they represent. Are these learned behaviors? Unique behaviors? This is really important to give you direction, especially if there's a physical level impact and you know it's stress-related. Now, I know that once you began to recognize some of those emotions and feelings by identifying these cycles and patterns, you were able to connect them to the subtle energetic level. Can you tell us more about this?

Samaya

Sure, we're all energetic beings. Our bodies are more than just physical, mental, and emotional. We have an energetic field around us, often called an Aura. It's all energy and frequency.

For example, if you've ever walked into a room and the hairs on the back of your neck stood up, that's your body detecting the energies outside of your physical body. It's this instinctual or subconscious recognition of what that energy feels like. This energy, once it hits the physical body, slows way down due to our physical density.

When we understand where our emotions lie in our bodies, such as anger in the liver and gallbladder, we can see their impact. For instance, if you have bouts of constipation, and crave salty crunchy foods or alcohol, that's the liver asking for more. These emotions become denser and grow in specific organs, causing physical imbalances. Similarly, fear is related to the bladder and kidneys. If you have bathroom issues or sexual issues, it's fear-related.

Erica

That's extremely insightful. I'm curious, if someone identified their impatience or another cycle, how can they then energetically harmonize that imbalance in a practical way?

Samaya

Breathwork is always useful because you can feel what that feels like. An interesting exercise is to look at yourself in the mirror, really look at your eyes, and say, "I love you." If it doesn't feel good, where do you feel that in your body? That's probably where a lot of your stress is held.

Erica

That's an excellent suggestion. When you can genuinely look at yourself and say "I love you," you are doing great. Because to know what love feels like, you have to embody it. There's no workaround for that.

Now, you mentioned you offer an Inner Voice Scan. Could you tell us more about that?

Samaya

Sure. I offer a free one-time scan using a device called an AO scan. It measures your frequencies, including the emotions affecting your physical body, and where in your physical body they are. It then provides suggestions for balancing out, along with balancing harmonics to listen to. The scanner has been a lifesaver for many people. It will measure every organ in your body, and let you know what's out of balance.

Erica

That's incredibly generous of you and sounds fascinating. I look forward to trying this. Samaya, it's been an absolute pleasure having you here today. Thank you for sharing your story.

Samaya

Thank you so much, Erica. It's been a pleasure.